What Grounds Me
Filed Under (Adam, Family, Single Parenthood) by Estee on 11-05-2009
I love this picture. It was taken yesterday atop of the CN Tower during a Mother’s Day lunch. Adam loves to kiss mommy and make her laugh (who says little auties don’t have a sense of humour!). As a woman going through the roughest times of her life in divorce (I will suggest that when someone you love leaves, it is like a death), it feels like a relief to count on the one thing that keeps me grounded and content. From this mom’s perspective, Adam and I are each other’s rock. We’ve managed to keep it together, despite lots of changes and a coming move to a new home. If divorce and moving be the top life stressors, then I will tell you, I think I’ve made it through.
I am sad to soon leave the home I built for Adam and my family and all that it represented. Someone said to me that a home is just four walls. But he was so wrong. A home is where the heart is; where love resides. My heart, though healing from a break, is intact. With a growing wisdom, I will raise a little boy knowing that where-ever Adam is, my home will be.
ESTÉE KLAR
TORONTO, ONTARIO, CANADA
Writer/Curator/Founder of The Autism Acceptance Project. Contributing Author to Between Interruptions: Thirty Women Tell the Truth About Motherhood, and Concepts of Normality by Wendy Lawson. Lecturer on autism and the media and parenting. Current graduate student Critical Disability Studies and most importantly, mother of Adam -- a new and emerging writer.
Oh he is such a handsome little boy. God Bless him.
Be strong and the tough times will be over before you know it. I always believe that these rough times give us more wisdom and maturity to appreciate the better moments we have in life. It gives us courage to live a better life.
Hope you will come out as a better and stronger person on the other side.
oh what a doll he is – how cosy and lovely you both look wrapped in a circle of love
Those are such sweet pictures!
The pictures are precious. I love how you describe “The Joy of Autism” on your homepage. It’s inspiring, heart-wrenching, beautiful and true…except that my little guy’s name is Daniel. =)
oh estee! i LOVE those pictures! yes. a home is MUCH more than four walls. my god. it’s the most stressful thing ever, the divorce, the moving. i had both too, but at the time i was childless so i could collapse into myself. you have adam. it’s different, more complicated, more stressful, and at the same time, look at those pictures! what loves you are for and with each other.
sending xx to you both