Spring Has Sprung

Filed Under (Adam, Development) by Estee on 16-03-2009

If you live in Toronto (or any part of Canada for that matter), it is so amazing to be outside again. Here in the city during the cold winter, we rely on cars, not snowshoes, to get around. Sad, I think, for we would be outside taking advantage of winter a lot more if city snow didn’t turn gray or melt with salt. City winters are wicked.

Nevertheless, spring has sprung. Or at least it’s about to. Adam and I are out walking, taking photos, and he’s now beginning to have his first “conversations.” He uses that word now too. He tries very hard on the telephone and afterwords the word “conversation” springs forth with ferocity from his mouth. He has become outgoing, say his teachers, and he speaks louder too.

The other day, he looked at me intently and asked for a dog. “Black,” he said forcefully. When Adam is sure about something, I can be sure he’s sure. I couldn’t help but feel a wave of guilt, for when recent events transpired, I got rid of the dog in order to resettle. I just didn’t want to leave the dog alone. So Adam is remembering his dog.

“Kiki,” he said again loudly, turning to look me in the eye.

“You can see Kiki,” I said reassuringly. Kiki is now living with friends just around the corner. Just when I thought (even though I should know better) that Adam wasn’t so keen on having his big Goldendoodle pooping and throwing up around the house, I was proven wrong. (I guess Adam doesn’t remember that part).

Now that we will be moving in the summer, a dog might, sooner or later, be imminent. A smaller dog, perhaps. That is, if he keeps asking for one.


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I’m a PhD candidate at York University, Critical Disability Studies, with a multi-disciplinary background in the arts as a curator and writer. I am the Founder of The Autism Acceptance Project (www.taaproject.com), and an enamoured mother of my only son who lives with the autism label. I like to write about our journey, critical issues regarding autism in the area of human rights, law, and social justice, as well as reflexive practices in (auto)ethnographic writing about autism.